So today it was “friends day” at my church and the aim was to invite a close friend to the morning service. I invited my best-friend of cause whom I have known for almost seven year now. We are pretty close I guess, we talk about everything together there are some things which we never speak about. I am talking about “deep” stuff, like problems she might be going through or any difficulties she might be facing. I only realised this the other day when the youth leader said to me when you invite your friend tell her she owes you for something you have done for her. This got me thinking, if I’m being serious; we have never argued before, when we are going through something we always make sure the other person doesn’t know.
I am side tracking now, the whole point of this is that having invited her to the service and seeing a spark in her as the pastor gave today’s word I was just filled with this unspeakable joy. You know when you do a self-less good deed, all I did was bring her to church and there rest; I put in the hands of God.
However soon after this feeling the devil decided to keep in and I started having these questions in my head “what if she changes before I do?” “how will people look at me next to her?” “what if people like her more than me?” I know it is the most selfish thing to think and if I must say very naive way of looking at things. But I realised that is exactly how Satan works, he brings these ungodly thoughts into your head. I mean so what if she changes before I do? I would actually be more than pleased for her because this is not a game. We are talking about giving your life to and doing his will here! The devil thought he had me you know, but “Greater is he that is within me than he that is in the world”. I was like not today, you will not have your way and soon as I had this voice in my head I immediately commanded:
”GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN!!!”
I look at myself right now and even though I am not the “changed youth” yet I am not the same person as I was yesterday, last week or last month. That is what I want for my friend or even better because I love her.
“Love one another with brotherly affection. Out do one another in showing honor” -Romans 12:10
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God first and men will follow.
I’m physically, emotional, spiritually and mentally tired of living the same everyday. Waking up to the same old view, the same prison like room, the same people, the same town, the same food.. I want change, I want to wake up to rays of sunshine piercing through the gaps left when I closed my curtains the night before. I want to look at a different scenery, I want to meet new people, eat new foods, I want to dance to a different song. I am tired, tired of living the same, I want change, change of environment, good change…